Life Is A Song
by Bonney Jo Bott  04/26/2004



Look back on youth.  Where have those years gone?  I want to say I don't regret a moment, but you were always on my mind.
 
I spent a lifetime searching for the right man.  I think about the blank pages of my life.  Life can be so cruel.  I feel so lonely in my life.  I hope life treats you kind.  You would be my do-over.  Would the choices you make still be the same?  I wish you love.
 
You think I can meet another person. Many precede and many will follow. I can't find what I've been looking for.  They won't be the same, nobody can take your place.  You're still the one that I love.  The only one I dream of.
 
My conscious and subconscious are consumed with you.  Living is about making mistakes, dying is wishing you'd made more.  Dreams are where I go to see the world as it could be.
 
I hope you dance.  Would you dance if I asked you to dance?  I'd make you take your clothes off and go dancing in the rain.  Let the rain come down and wash away my tears.
 
Should I tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes.  Such a night, the moon was bright.  Thin silver lined clouds danced in front of the shimmering harvest moon that lit up the evening.
 
When destiny calls you, you must be strong. Some things are meant to be. Maybe I didn't hold you all those lonely, lonely nights.  Hold me tight.  Let the one you hold be the one you want...the one you need.  Hold me in your arms tonight...in the middle of the night.  Would it be a sin to stay?  He was dignified.
 
Prove to me you're a bad lover so I can forget about you.  Be better than you are.  Let your spirit set you free.  Be mine tonight.  Je t'adore.
 I've hungered for your touch a long, long time.  Take my hand and hold me tight.  I need your arms to hold me now, the nights are so unkind.  I just want to hold you.  Would you tremble if I touched your lips?  Your lips excite me, let your arms invite me. You can take my breath away. When you smile you have total control.  I hope you never lose your sense of humor.
 
I waited so long for a miracle.  When there's someone that you know then just let your feelings show.  I'm so afraid to show I care.
 
Say tonight you're mine, completely. She longed to hear him whisper in her ear, “I'll be gentle.”  With you I want total saturation of pleasurable sex and molestation. Fondled into senselessness...the recipient of my lover's Viagra.  Tonight with words unspoken, you know that I'm the only one.  To feel your naked body crushing mine into my mattress. Give me a chance to keep you satisfied.  Make me thrill through the night.  When it's love you give, the thought of your kiss sets me on fire.  I want to feel you.  If you move real slow, I‘ll let it go.  Sweet memories will last a long time.  I hope you have all you've ever dreamed of.
 
A new day has begun.  As I live in my sperm-free home and sleep in my virgin bed, there are gashes in my heart that are bleeding my life away.  Should my tender heart be broken, I will cry those tear drops knowing who I am.  I know exactly who I am.
 
I want to say, “Come back,” but you were never really here.  You couldn't be that man that I adore.  I know that you're in love with her.  Say that you lied, tell me you lied.  
 
He felt he was starting to forget things.  Perhaps the onset of Alzheimer's?  She could only pray that he would forget he never loved her.  Her prayers had never worked in the past.  Where is the love that lets the sunlight in?  I'm all out of faith. Come kiss this pain away.  I live for how you let me feel.
 
A thousand dreams that we can still believe.  I need your love. I need you for the rest of my life.  I die every time we're apart.  Would you die for the one you love?
 
When I first saw you, I saw love.  All I ever wanted for my life.  From the day that I met you, I knew that your love would be all that I needed.  You can't let the chance to love him pass you by.  Give my heart to him in sweet surrender.  Never let him go.
 
You're still the one I run to.  I wanted you to comfort me when I called you. I could never tell you I'm so happy that you're mine.  I can't help falling in love with you.  I know I want you.  After all this time, you're still the one I love.  I'll be there, always.  I will always love you.  I'm crazy for your love.  Fate will lead love where it has to go.  You are my unreachable star.  Te amo
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I sit and listen to songs for the lonely when my dreams won't come true.